I am an honest person. I really am. I go out of my way to be honest and truthful and legal. It is almost pathetic how anal I am about it sometimes. I got a cd in the mail from a ‘friend that shall remain nameless for legal reasons’, that was full of songs she liked and thought I would like. It was so sweet of her…and I did like them. So much, in fact, that I decided to repay the favor and send her a disk of some of my favorite songs. I sorted through my “large” itunes library and put together a pretty eclectic assortment of songs. I was pretty proud of myself for having such amazing technology skills….I mean….I have a MAC……
anyway. I put together the disk and wrote all the song titles on it and was getting ready to mail it out to her when I realized…..this was a no no! I was pirating music! I am SO against people stealing music. It is just so wrong. Maybe because I have composer friends…I don’t know.  I just know it is stealing and I don’t like it. So what did I do? I went on itunes and re-purchased all the songs on the disk I had just made. Yes, I actually did. So, now I own two copies of the songs I sent my friend. I don’t know if that is exactly legal, but dang I really tried.
so, anyway, that is my example of my ongoing quest to be ‘honest’ in my dealings with my fellow man.
why, you might ask, do I bring this up now? Well, I would answer, let me tell you…. I was out Christmas shopping with my boyfriend and a few of my kids and we went to our very new old used book store. (awesome title, no?) I got to talking with a woman I think MUST be the owner because she kinda took charge…and she was draggin her oxygen tank around with her. Not your typical employee….anyway, I was braggin about my large collection of books and she asked what I did. You’ll never believe what I told her. Student? no. Mom? nope. Pole dancer? not even. I told her I was a writer. She was impressed and all that….asked if I had been published….reasonable question….no, not yet….
I didn’t have the heart to tell her I haven’t finished any of my books yet…..okay, maybe a few short ones, but still, not published.
What on earth possssed me to flat out lie to this dear sweet woman? I believe it is because that THAT is what I WANT to be. I am sorely tempted to take next semester off of school and just write. But, I know what would happen. I would end up doing all kinds of things that were not even related to writing. So, I am going to stick with school and try to write more. I know I have a great story…I just need to get it out on paper! sigh……I’m pretty sure this is a justifiable reason to hire a maid, nanny, and personal massage technician……cuz I said so.