It’s summer, which means all the many things I haven’t had time to do during the year will magically get done. Every year it is the same. The school year ends with all those proverbial bells and whistles, and then…(insert word that signifies defeat)

I’ll admit that I didn’t actually make a “list”. At least not on paper. I do have an ever growing list in my head. I think I’m afraid that writing it down would literally shut me down. I’d rather operate in a sort of naïve oblivion where I have loads of energy, organized thoughts, unlimited funds, and cooperative people in my life.

Did you see that last one? Yes, maybe that is the reason that we are only just shy of two weeks out of school and I want to crawl into a hole and hide. Not one of those holes made by animals…especially those big spiders….Okay, maybe I have no desire to crawl into a hole. Let me rephrase that. I want to crawl… never mind. It doesn’t matter because there is no escape.

I do love the flexibility that I have as a teacher. Having summer off at least gives me hope that things will get done. I can’t imagine how I’d ever accomplish anything if I worked every day, all year. Being a single mom sucks. Being a single mom with adult children who still think they are just the ‘children’ part of that label makes it harder. Have you seen Failure to Launch? I’m not looking for a “naked room” but I would like to buy groceries and have them make it into the fridge before they are eaten.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids and I love being around them…most of the time. I just want them to be able to function without me. Maybe I should fake my death and see what happens? I’m afraid there would be much partying and chaos if I did that. Heck no…I’m gonna stick around and keep pushing them out of my nest.

Maybe I need to find a man with a younger kid to marry. They can move in and I “have” to force some kids out to make room. I mean…I’m not apposed to this idea…

Sigh. Back to the summer grind for me. I have about 5 projects started….and about -7 projects full of motivation. I’ll catch my second wind about 11:30 tonight. Late enough for everyone to be in bed or at least in their rooms…and late enough to make me want to nap all day tomorrow.

I’m gonna go do a puzzle. Cause I said so.

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